Because you’re awesome

Even Cowgirls Get The Blues by Lis Ferla

Even Cowgirls Get The Blues by Lis Ferla

I’m having one of those days when I want to grab someone by her shoulders and shake her until she can tell me how awesome she is. But I realize this is counterproductive, and that shouting is sometimes just shouting into a void.

You see, I run a nonprofit for geeky women. We’re doing amazing work; we’re putting on an convention. We’re 100% volunteers. This means we’re absolutely fucking crazy for the work we do.

But every once in a while, one of my staff members gets discouraged. Feels let down. Feels pushed outside. Feels like they want to pack up their X-Men action figures and go home. Some have. While there are some men on the staff, I do think that it’s still the women who doubt their abilities and their belonging. That even in an organization full of and for women, they still carry around the impostor syndrome and don’t let themselves be heard.

I run a tough show and a tight ship. You work and play hard, and you have to find those other things that make success because you’re not getting a paycheck. (Though it’s my belief that even if you were getting a paycheck, you need other reasons to love what you do.) But sometimes work isn’t glorious or full-filling. Sometimes it is shit; and maybe it’s my inner ranch girl, but sometimes you just pick up that shovel and literally shovel that shit.

And when one of my staff starts to doubt herself, I want her to know that she is valued, that she needs to get off the ground because she’s better than this. Because she’s stronger than this. Because this is what we have to do. You have to fight because in a world where nothing truly matters, the only thing that matters is what you do.

So I want you to pick yourself off the floor and dust off. I want you to do what you need to: to shovel the shit and move beyond the shit. Because instead of shaking you, you’re getting support and mercy from your sisters. Because you would not be here if you weren’t awesome and strong and all those other things that you aren’t feeling at the moment. Take a breath of fresh air, sister, and then pick up your shovel.

About Erica

Erica McGillivray spends too much contemplating the socioeconomic importance of the bananaphone. Ring, ring, ring. Bananaphone. She loves bunnies, soap opera plots in comic books, and dreams of flying in the stars. Erica works for Moz in inbound marketing, which means sometimes, she'll talk about that.
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8 Responses to Because you’re awesome

  1. Billy says:

    This. Just…this.

  2. Anna says:

    You have no idea what this means to me. I received some not-so-happy news this morning and I kept feeling like I was about to cry, but for some reason I wasn’t able to all morning. This made me cry, but in a good, let it all out way. Thank you.
    Also, it’s been really fun getting to actually talk to you more and getting to know you. You rock, Erica!

    • Erica says:

      Oh, I didn’t mean to make you cry, but I’m glad it was a good one.

      Yes, I’ve enjoyed getting to know you too. Thanks.

      Remember, you are very, very awesome.

  3. Nikitangel says:

    I really needed to hear this today. Thank you.

  4. Tammy says:

    Erica, you always have a way of making me a weepy girl, but in a good way. :D

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